MAYA/AKA

"Fine, Luffy. I dont need you. Not in my new age. Too bad."

doll/blood/frill/they/bubble/she/he, bigender hyperfem satanist bisexual, suspected NPD (+BPD traits), ASD+AD(H)D, ENG/FR, taken
carrd frequently updated
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INTRO

"I'm Himiko Toga. And I lived life exactly how I wanted to. I was just a normal girl... with the cutest smile in the whole world!"

haii!! im maya or aka! im a bigender bisexual (fem pref) who uses doll/blood/frill/they/she/he pronouns. i most likely have NPD with BPD traits, and i am diagnosed with ASD and AD(H)D. I am a satanist with heavy humanistic beliefs. i am a HUGE hime/yumejoshi, and i loveee yandere stuff. overall i'm really into horror and fictional dark content.

INTERESTS

"I'd be willing to snap your heart and make you see only me, wouldn't I?"

HYPERFIXES, SPINTERESTS, ON-OFF HYPERFIX
ANIMANGA:
ONE PIECE., YURI, mob psycho, nanbaka, reincarnated as a villainess! all routes lead to doom, sleepy princess in the demon castle, my hero academia (not really..), chainsaw man, jujustsu kaisen, bungo stray dogs, bloom into you: regarding sayaka saeki, hello melancholic, between the sheets, my broken mariko, my girlfriend's not here today, goodbye my rose garden, run away with me girl, happy sugar life, i wanted to be hurt by love, firefly mariage, junji ito (espec uzumaki), milgram, my broken vampire, tonari, kurodora, kitakawa, suicide parabellumGAMES:
OTOME GAMES AND (HORROR) VISUAL NOVELS, IKESEN, IKEPRI, IKEVIL, IKEVAMP, a billion yandere itch games, love and deepspace, a3!, idolish7, i-chuu, idolmaster derusete, chou no doku, dandelion: wishes brought to you, nameless: the one thing you must recall, what in hell is bad, bandori, enstars, obey me, d4dj, cupid parasite, sympathy kiss, variable barricade, hakuoki, amnesia memories, omori, needy streamer overdose, witch's heart, hello charlotte, blank dream, pocket mirror, stardew valley, blush blush,BOOKS:
THE COLLECTOR!!!! schoolgirl, any edgar allen poe (spec the black cat and morella), naomi, hangsaman, we have always lived in the castle, the picture of dorian grey, carmilla, frankenstein, no longer human, the metamorphosisMUSIC:
RAP/HIP-HOP, tyler the creator, J COLE, kendrick lamar, childish gambino, kanye west, IDK, lil uzi, loona, g-idle, jun togawa, buck-tick, tvgirl, mitski, dazey and the scouts, shinsei kamattechan, tokenainamae, soutaiseiriron, beabadoobee, kikuohana, nastyona, AJJ, julie, pretty sick, olivia rodrigo, the dresden dolls, mars argo, the cardigans, fiona apple, the brobecks, weezer, glass animals, milgram, miraidenpa, penelope scott, the cure, dadaroma, mejibray, the gallo, ano, chappell roan, rio romeo, will woodOTHER:
VINCENT VAN GOGH, community, superstore, I think you should leave, lost (2004), from (2022), sanrio, collecting figures, psychology, spelling, math, social studies, (j-)fashion, makeup, religion, politics, painting, sewing, embroidery, general arts and crafts

LIKES~DISLIKES

"Love.. me.. love me.. accept me.. say.. 'We love everything about you!'"

LIKES:
cats and red pandas, people with similar interests, people who are clingy or affectionate, people with similar mental disorders or autism, people with similar beliefs, hime/fu/yume joshis/danshis, rare/cross shippers, satanists, atheists, and humanists, nerds+geeksDISLIKES:
people who force their religions upon others, queer exclusionists, one piece haters, people who hate my faves/my yumes, transmeds, anti self diagnosisFUCK OFF:
HOMOPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES, RACISTS, FATPHOBES (i will literally drown u in my thousands of kgs of fat), ABLEISTS, ISREAL DEFENDERS, PRO-LIFERS, people who beleive in misandry, narc abuse, or blackwashing, lolishocons, EXTREME anti-fiction or anti-shippers, people who beleive in censorship, purity, or cringe culture, darkshippers who don't add warnings, people who ship/have open kinks for VERY problematic stuff without being a victim themselves, non black ppl who say the n-word, people who hate on victims, ppl who are also big fans of my yumes (ily I swear I'm just a bitch)

FAVES

"What are you doing? Why aren't you fighting me? If you don't fight me now, then I won't let you go. Ever. You'll be mine. I'll keep you here forever. Don't you see?"

YUME'S:
KENSHIN UESUGI, gill lovecraft, JUNICHI SHIBA!!!, masumi usui, chikage utsuki, YOFY, gilbert von obsidian, toma amnesia, sanji blackleg, UTA, arthur conan doyle, motonari mouri, clavis lelouch, rio ortiz, himiko toga, naomi tanizaki, saku uruha, heisuke todou, mammon, leviathan, satan, foras (whb), victor (ikevil), kagari amagase, ashe bradley, caleb, rafayel, xavier (lads), akio asahina, jak harasi, eden, hawk, kylar, ian duff, solivan brugmansia, ren (hana and 14dwy), alan orion, dijon, jisoo/bryce, yeon-hoFAVES:
FRANKY, ASL brothers, vivi, pudding, reiju, every strawhat, yamato, bartolomeo, (OP), TERU, mob, reigen, tome, mezato, ritsu (MP100), nagi rokuya, yuki, kazunari miyoshi, misumi ikuraga, citron (a3!), muni ohnaruto, muu kusonoki, NIKOLAI, sigma, fukuchi, teruko, atsushi, lucy (bsd), sora, tsukasa, kanata, tori (enstars), annie, frankie, abed (community), dina foxx, asuka langley soryu, sayaka saeki, mari, aubrey (omori), lime and charlotte (witch's heart), nao, gin (yttd), C (hello charlotte), paimon, leraye (whb)

BYI~BELIEFS

"Aslong as I live, aslong as you live, and aslong as you're here.."

(due to the fact that i have some unpopular beliefs, im including it in the before you interact. for the love of god look at the definitions before freaking out.)
BELIEFS:
satanist with heavy humanist beliefs, comshipper (NOT the rape or pedo type), semi-profiction, anti-censorship, anti-traditional religion, anti-purity/cringe culture, queer inclusionist, fujoshi/himedanshi supporter, etc.
tldr: i adamantly believe that people should be able to do whatever they want so long as they dont directly hurt others in the process. there is a very slim chance that these opinions will change, but if you feel like debating about them with me, i will gladly argue!!BYI:
first of all, i feel like its important to note that i most likely have covert NPD with BPD traits, and that it very much effects me. just so you know what you are getting into, some symptoms include: overall narcissism, extreme jealousy, seeing others as lower/higher beings, lack of guilt, switching up very quickly, easily getting attached, obsession, emotional instability, being very disconnected from others, and frequently thinking im never in the wrong. i try very hard not to show these symptoms, but please note that they are there. if I do any of this stuff to you, just alert me bcuz im usually not aware of it. also, another byi is that I never ever start conversations or reply to people unless I really really like you, and that's generally temporary, soo if I like ghost you or leave you on read plz plz don't be offended..

DEFINITIONS

"—I want to. I want to become a family! I want to become a family with you guys! I want to be here together… with you… with everyone else. I want to keep performing with everyone."

there are some words/terms which not everybody understands, so you will find definitions here! for the record, majority of these have multiple definitions. these definitions are the ones which apply to me.satanist = somebody who values self over faith. some beliefs include emphasis on self-worth, personal empowerment, and self indulgence. I do not actually worship/believe in satan, he is simply used as a symbol of rejection towards traditional religion.
humanist = another religion/philosophy which places emphasis on critical thinking and equality over faith
hime, fu, yume, joshi, danshi = japanese words combined to create fandom terms. princess (yuri), rotten (yaoi), dream (selfship), girl, boy. (exg. himejoshi = yuri girl = girl who reads yuri.)
dark fiction = fiction with darker topics, mostly psychological horror.
eroguro = eroticism and gore, usually combined.
hyperfix, spinterest = hyperfixations and special interests. extreme interests limited to those with ADHD or autism. hyperfixes are short, while spinterests are long or permanent.
otome games = (generally) straight dating sims directed towards women.
transmed = idiots who believe that you must get surgeries/transition in order to actually be trans.
lolishocons = lolicons and shotacons. people (usually adults) into child anime girls or boys.
anti-fiction, anti-ship = those who are against total freedom in fiction and shipping. generally against the exploration of darker topics in fiction/ships.
darkshippers = those who ship darker topics including rape, pedophilia, abuse, etc. (not every dark shipper enjoys all of these things, i personally do not ship the above topics.)
comshipper = somebody who ships things that may be complicated irl. this includes human×nonhuman, yandere ships, most ships with mentally ill people, and darkships.
yume's = characters who I selfship with
anti-censorship/pro-art = against censorship and supportive of all art. these usually refer to people who beleive that art should not be hidden or censored due to the topics discussed, and that people should have the rights to explore whatever they want in fiction and art.
anti-purity culture = people who are against the ideas that purity is equivalent to morality, or that purity has any importance at all. generally associated with self-empowerment and disdain towards abstinence.
queer inclusionist = somebody who beleives that all queer identities are valid, that nobody has the right to dictate who you are besides from yourself, and that forcing queer people into boxes defeats the whole point of queerness